true authority

growing up in life.. authority, power has never been something i've desired.. on the other end real, true authority was something i'd never fully understood.. but this week i had my view on life completely turned upside down. i learnt about a type of authority found only in Christ. a type of power that we have access to through the Holy Spirit. but more than anything my life was revolutionized as i discovered a type of authority that just doesn't make sense.. it's so opposite than our world that i can't fully understand it.. yet i long for it.. it's the authority of service and in servanthood. living a life of serving and just being last is so different than this life of 'survival of the fittest' or this attitude of 'top dog' and so on. it's so different.. it's so attractive.. it's enthralling and has created a longing in my heart to be the last.. to serve.. but more than anything to not please this world or impress those around me for this place is so opposite than what God just.. is.. so with that i say my longing has become to obey.. to pursue.. my God, my Saviour, my Father and if that means i no longer please the people around me.. i can live with that. for there's so much more..